She's here!
If you want the whole story, read along. If you're not into that, feel free to just enjoy the photos.
| Here she is in all her brand new newborn glory! |
So, I had on-again-off-again labor for a few days, keeping us all on pins and needles. Especially, when my mom's flight got delayed and it looked like Lanaya wasn't going to wait!
But, wait she did. We were able to finish up the kids' final swim lesson and even have a day to work on some projects and final preparations. And for me to finally lose my serene patience and get frustrated that she wasn't here already! But then, Friday night, things started moving along and I could tell it was finally going to keep up until she did arrive.
| If you look closely, you can see that the machine says 7 lbs. 10 oz. |
I thought I was totally rocking this technique. Normally, I kind of freak out with each "pressure wave", but this time I really was quite serene and at peace.
Finally, I woke Blake up a little after 6 AM and told him it was time to go.
The night before we had talked about going to the Farmer's Market to get donuts if I was not yet in my active birthing time (a.k.a. labor). So, when I told Blake it was time to go, he rolled over, looked at the clock, and told me it was too early. The Farmer's Market doesn't open until 8 AM.
I patiently told him that I wasn't talking about going to get donuts. And apparently, I seemed too calm because I then spent the next 5 minutes explaining to him that yes, my pressure waves were coming every 5 to 15 minutes and this was the real deal. And finally, I just had to say, "You're bugging me!" and he realized it was in fact, time to go. We had agreed weeks prior that we would head to the hospital early, so I would have time to get settled and it wouldn't be the mad rush the last two had been where I got there by the time I was dilated to a 7 and pretty much had to just hop on the bed and start pushing right away.
And, of course, on our way out to the car, I had three pretty intense pressure waves. But I was mad and disappointed and wanted to get as far away from that nurse as possible.
So, naturally, we headed to the Farmer's Market. Unfortunately, by the time I got there, the nausea I'd been feeling off and on all morning was back in full swing and the doughnuts I'd been craving didn't look so tasty. So, we headed over to our CSA and picked out the week's veggies, then bought some eggs. All the while, I was having pressure waves and really struggling to even remotely convince myself that they were only sensations of pressure and not pain.
I was still pretty mad.
This was my birthing time and absolutely nothing was going the way I'd envisioned it.
On the way home, we stopped and picked up some donuts and snacks from the grocery store. I was still having pretty frequent and intense pressure waves and I'm sure someone somewhere is talking about the crazy pregnant lady they saw squatting in the bulk foods section last week as yet another powerful wave hit.
The kids were disappointed to have me home without a baby, but the donuts helped. Blake went back to bed (all morning he'd been complaining of how tired he was and that he could have used a couple more hours of sleep. You can guess how that affected my already mad mood) and I told my mom all about the frustrating morning.
The sunrise, chirping birds, and rainbow were completely forgotten.
And I never really did get back into the "hypno" mode. Instead, I just kept talking to my mom and tried to stay distracted as each wave hit. This worked pretty well for a couple of hours. And then I could tell it was time to go. And this time it really was.
So, I woke Blake up. No arguments this time. And then waited for him to get ready. And then it was like a switch flipped and it was past time to go. So, we hurried out to the car and headed on our way. I strapped on my ipod and listened to the various tracks coaching me through my "easy first stage" and tried really hard to only feel pressure. I think it worked a little for the drive over.
| I love that Blake captured her looking right into my eyes here. I was so happy to meet and hold our baby girl at last! |
Blake got us to the hospital in record time. I had to wait out a pressure wave in the parking lot and Blake didn't think I'd be able to make it to the labor and delivery floor, so he questioned the nearest hospital employee about a wheelchair. That guy took off running down the hall in spite of my protests that I didn't want a wheelchair. But, I was mostly trying to stay focused inside my head on the hypnosis, so when he brought it back and Blake put me in it, I didn't protest.
Sitting straight up on a stiff wheelchair is a most uncomfortable position during pressure waves.
But, it did get us to the labor and delivery floor much quicker. And this time, they skipped the triage unit and sent me straight back. We were disappointed to learn that both rooms with the bath tub were full, so I told Blake to start pumping up the birthing ball as soon as we got into the room.
He went to work furiously, all the while fielding questions from hospital staff, so I could focus on trying to get into a self-hypnosis. Of course, by the time he got it pumped up, they checked me and guess what I was dilated too--a 6/7. So, I never touched it.
Then my least favorite nurse from the morning came in and informed us that my doctor was out of town at a wedding shower and wouldn't make it back in time for the birth.
I was so sad. And I really was hating on this nurse right then.
And to make things even worse, they were struggling to get an IV port in my rolling veins. So, Nasty Nurse took over and was so incredibly rough and forceful! For days after delivering my biggest complaint was the bruises all over my hands and wrists. The one where she finally got it to work is still quite painful and traumatized. My whole hand and wrist hurt every time I move them!
Then, they told me they needed a blood sample. It was the same guy who'd grabbed us the wheelchair downstairs. He probably thinks I'm a very nasty person, because I wasn't very polite to him as he tried to stick me right as a pressure wave hit.
Anyway, I'll spare you all the gory details of the next few minutes and sum things up this way: They told me I couldn't push because the doctor wasn't there yet and there was still a tiny bit of my cervix in the way. Fortunately, my mom had told me that morning that she always ignored this instruction and pushed anyway. So, I did too. And laughed inwardly as the nurses would praise me each time for being so good and not pushing during each pressure wave.
Then, just as the doctor got there, I felt that I'd had enough, couldn't remember why I'd wanted to do this naturally, and asked for any kind of pain relief. But, it wasn't to be had. The baby was too close and it would go straight to her at this point.
I cried and said this wasn't how I'd wanted things to be and that I'd wanted to be calm when I gave birth. They all quickly reassured me that I was calm. I'm pretty sure that they reassure all women of whatever it is they wish. If I'd said I wanted to look like a supermodel at my birthing time, they would have just as quickly and confidently told me I looked like a supermodel. But still, it was nice to hear that maybe I wasn't as hysterical as I felt.
The doctor told me that we could make this work if I would roll onto my back and give it a good push. So, I said a quick and fervent prayer that I could focus and do what I needed to do.
And I did. Two pushes later, and my baby was in my arms. I have never pushed for less than 30 minutes before finally getting to hold my baby. Blake and I were both amazed. And it turns out that she was born about 33 minutes after we arrived at the hospital. That's a record, even for me. So much for getting there in time to get settled in!
And I could not have been happier. I held her for a long while and tried to ignore all the rest of what was going on. And I felt so great!
He could take a cue from my nurse. One of the first things my labor and delivery nurse said to me after giving birth (not the Nasty Nurse, but a very likable nurse) was, "I love your hair! It's so cute!" Not a bad thing to hear right after giving birth.
| Loving her first bath |
| This displays some of my favorite bits about a newborn--the super soft hair right at the base of the head, the wrinkly skin on the back and shoulders, and just the precious smallness of them! |
And perfect in every way.
Even though one of the first things her daddy told her was that she had "Wrestler's ear". They were a bit mangled. And actually, are still kind of unfolding even now, a week later.
Eventually, we were taken to our recovery room and my Kind nurse even took the IV port out a little early because it was causing me so much pain. We took Lanaya down to the nursery to get her first bath and then my mom showed up with the kids.
These two were thrilled, to say the least.
It was love at first sight as they met their new baby sister.
And they still can't get enough of holding her. I love it!
Grandma's turn. Isn't my mom beautiful?
Trey stayed quite uncertain. He pretty much ignored me and the baby. I knew that was a likely possibility and for the most part, was okay with it.
Here we are! This is our family. I love it.






